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11.19.o8

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 19, 2008, 3:25 AM
Hello DA---

I don't know that anyone ever looks at this anymore... I know I hardly do. I would feel bad for anyone waiting around for me, it's rather for my own record keeping I suppose.

Today I am 2 hours away from opening. My alarm is probably going off in my room right now... must apologize to my roommate later. Or did I set it for 6:3o?

I am a very tired 18 year old... I need to get paid... soon. Order new checks. Pay rent in the next week after Thanksgiving. Get my sister a birthday present.

I am so getting a studio next year... or living alone. Whatever. I find that I'm not much of a people person once I begin to feel a loss of privacy. Walking on eggshells to please others.

I wrote ... or rather, began, a new story today. Updated another one... I've probably lost all of my readers.

Trying to figure out something about my past, present and future.

I realized a truth in something that I discussed with my 'bro Tim the other day, and it was a bit depressing. He assured me it would pass... for him, maybe. There's something about him that can pull him out of this dark place that I'm currently in.

Whatever the case. I am alone. And so I might remain for the rest of my life. Friends and family, all the same... even when I'm close, even when they're right next to me... dear to my heart. I am still alone. I'm beginning to wonder how that is even possible?

But I can't say it hasn't been something I wished for. This solitude, even in a sea of people. Be careful what you wish for.

But I am not totally alone. There is a bittersweet truth that I live by, and live for. That I have God. In Christ I am never alone. My friend, father and brother. The closest person to my heart, always there for me... always.

And yet there is this thing... humanity? And humanity, while great at some times, others not so much... would cause me to seek out other humans, and the human pain... well. Who knows?

If all goes well, I will be next year where I want to be. It really depends.

Yours,
Gem

  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: "Out from Under" by Joanna Pacitti
  • Reading: Walden by Henry David Thoreau
  • Watching: Computer Screen
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: About once a day.
  • Drinking: Water and Bubble Tea

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 8teen
  • Current Residence: Michigan
  • Interests: God. Life. Love.
  • Favourite band or musician: Justin Nozuka
  • Favourite artist: Vincent Van Gogh
  • Favourite style of art: Anything that's not abstract or crap anime.
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod---iTunes
  • Favourite gaming platform: Xbox 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: should you really be idolizing a cartoon character?
  • Personal Quote: I've never used sex to get anything, except more sex - P.J. Clapp
  • Tools of the Trade: a monkey wrench

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*GlauG:iconGlauG: Jun 30, 2008, 4:45:16 PM
I wondered how you'd managed to become an Archery Instructor (read your journal), it's not the most common of jobs... :P
And if I did send a postcard, it'd probably turn up between 4-7 days, the Japanese postal system is probably the best in the world, I'm now convinced. Any delay would be down to the USPS at the other end. ^^;

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*GlauG:iconGlauG: Jun 28, 2008, 8:00:39 PM
I've been kinda crazybusy in Japan, and just never see you on msn anymore. :P

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=MacIomhair:iconMacIomhair: Sep 5, 2007, 1:40:09 AM
Thanks for the FAV!! :+fav:

:w00t:

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~x0xSuicide-Kandix0x:iconx0xSuicide-Kandix0x: Jan 27, 2006, 3:06:03 PM
hey! u lied to mehhhh >.< :giggle: u are sheksi and talented as well hon ^^ i love the hair too o.o

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~BigBoyBoon:iconBigBoyBoon: Sep 28, 2005, 9:35:28 PM
:glomp:

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*sagittariusgallery:iconsagittariusgallery: Sep 10, 2005, 11:24:49 PM
Thanks so much for the :+fav: on "Nymphs in the Garden of Eden", I truly appreciate the support!

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~Dark-Warrior:iconDark-Warrior: Aug 31, 2005, 8:01:07 AM
lol ok. i'll be looking foward to it :D

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When my eyes close for the last time
Does it all simply end in a blanket of darkness
And what of my soul?

- Atreyu, The Remembrance Ballad
~6GeMiNi9:icon6GeMiNi9: Aug 30, 2005, 8:40:04 PM
really? hehe, okay... I'll draw something else, it will be cool!!! :P

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~Dark-Warrior:iconDark-Warrior: Aug 26, 2005, 8:43:23 AM
you don't have to draw ninjas then XD

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When my eyes close for the last time
Does it all simply end in a blanket of darkness
And what of my soul?

- Atreyu, The Remembrance Ballad
~6GeMiNi9:icon6GeMiNi9: Aug 25, 2005, 6:44:10 PM
NOOO ... I just, can't draw ninjas as well as I had first assumed.... :p

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...damned terrorists, you all need to have your limbs shot off one by one

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~Dark-Warrior:iconDark-Warrior: Aug 21, 2005, 5:16:06 PM
Hey, are you dropping the collab? >_< Well it's ok if you do. I understand if you're busy.

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When my eyes close for the last time
Does it all simply end in a blanket of darkness
And what of my soul?

- Atreyu, The Remembrance Ballad
~BigBoyBoon:iconBigBoyBoon: Aug 16, 2005, 11:14:30 PM
ahaha... thanks for the hot lama

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Once you Boon you don't go back
~Sawy:iconSawy: Aug 16, 2005, 10:29:33 PM
Hey chick!
just stoppin' to say hi and can't wait to see you when school starts! lol.
hope your summer went well!

:heart:

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~6GeMiNi9:icon6GeMiNi9: Aug 12, 2005, 12:06:51 PM
um...it's coming?...<.<;;

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...damned terrorists, you all need to have your limbs shot off one by one

$:jarkorig:
~Dark-Warrior:iconDark-Warrior: Aug 2, 2005, 5:41:36 AM
Hey you! where's my pic? lol XD jk. Take your time ;)

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When my eyes close for the last time
Does it all simply end in a blanket of darkness
And what of my soul?

- Atreyu, The Remembrance Ballad
~6GeMiNi9:icon6GeMiNi9: Aug 1, 2005, 2:48:07 PM
aye..thanks, it doesn't seem to work on my computer though...

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...damned terrorists, you all need to have your limbs shot off one by one

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~yoi:iconyoi: Aug 1, 2005, 5:27:40 AM
Just came to say that you have a cool message in your icon. :highfive:

Oh and.. I got your 666th pageview. *snicker*

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~kYnQuinhe:iconkYnQuinhe: Jul 31, 2005, 3:06:05 PM
lol

all in the good name of jark the great :D

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~6GeMiNi9:icon6GeMiNi9: Jul 31, 2005, 2:57:50 PM
aren't we all...it took me like 10 tries to get my picture up...and I had to rename it for it to finally be put up...I was getting mighty suspicious, and now it won't let my avatar that's 50x50 to load...

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...damned terrorists, you all need to have your limbs shot off one by one

$:jarkorig:
~Eidrian:iconEidrian: Jul 31, 2005, 2:52:03 PM
Thanks a lot for the :+fav:. For Jark. :nod:
~kYnQuinhe:iconkYnQuinhe: Jul 31, 2005, 2:48:48 PM
i sure hope so :(
i'm a jark lover myself :D

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i hear it's amazing when the famous purple stuffed worm in flap-jaw space with the tuning fork does a raw blink on hara-kiri rock. i need scissors! 61!
~6GeMiNi9:icon6GeMiNi9: Jul 31, 2005, 2:43:29 PM
They're isn't another way to go. Jark stays.

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...damned terrorists, you all need to have your limbs shot off one by one

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~kYnQuinhe:iconkYnQuinhe: Jul 31, 2005, 2:37:07 PM
thanks for the :+fav: on [link]

jark will rise again

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i hear it's amazing when the famous purple stuffed worm in flap-jaw space with the tuning fork does a raw blink on hara-kiri rock. i need scissors! 61!
~nOyInc:iconnOyInc: May 28, 2005, 10:19:41 AM
Hey dork.
nOyInc.

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and want a brand new start
to do...that...jazz!"
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